Saturday, December 15, 2007

do i stick? or do i quit?

Right now, i'm in a dip. Considering quitting, but still hanging in there. It used to be fun, my work. Although there are times that I thought of quitting then, but that's just pressure. Every morning was a rush. If I wake earlier than usual, I'd be laying out plans of what needs to be done once i reach the office. If I woke up late, I'd be worried and sometimes forgot to brush my teeth. I used to take lesser nicotine break back then, because concentration on my work distracted y nicotine needs.

Now, work is like a routine. Spend more time in front of the pc and do more clicking and typing than thinking. My work somehow limits my creativity. That is something I wish to avoid, and free-hand and the possibility to construct my work as how I like or as how I think is best done is the reason why I took the job in the first place, and with a lesser wage. Now I'm beginning to regret this, and this, I hate.

If my alarm clock wakes me up earlier some mornings, I'd reset the time and sleep again, 'no rush' I lullabied. If I was late to work, 'what the hell, I'm late anyways, why bother'. The best description to be reckon with my poor intimacy with my job is, boredom.

I want a job that wakes me up every morning. I want a drive, a motivation, an excitement, an adrenaline rush, a companion, a reason, a mean of personal contribution and freedom in a 9-5 prison. 

They said I'm choosy. I said, what's wrong with that?

what's your idea of a job?

2 comments:

chickentalk said...

Just quit your job dude, but remember to finish all your assigment. Something that when you quit your job, your boss still remember you and said, "if Fikri still here"..

meanpeople said...

haha..sounds familiar..right on dude..